Monday, May 23, 2016

Alone & Sick with a Toddler

Alone and sick with my little one is probably one of the worse things that ever happened to me.


Can't really remember when but I think it was this year that I got terribly sick also. Good thing though it was a weekend so my husband was able to take care of my daughter and me. I also got sick last year but it was also a weekend and my sister-in-law was still here so she was able to take care of my little girl, while the husband was taking care of me, and I think he was doing some chore as well back then. I even told myself I was so lucky because I always get sick on weekends.

But then, this time -it was a Monday, and there's just the two of us. My little girl and I. Even when I wanted to rest, I can't, because we'll be both hungry and I just can't stand a messy house. We're staying at my SIL's place right now btw, and their floor aren't the best. The paint was coming off and the dust is just endless. I could sweep the floor in the morning, afternoon, and even at night, and there's still a LOT of dust to be swept off. I don't even know where it's coming from. And that alone frustrates the hell out of me.

And so I was so stressed. I had runny nose, my sipon is literally pouring down my nose all the time! I ran out of tissue, and so I used the kitchen napkin, and it was not the best, it was too rough for the face. My little girl was also sick, she has cold as well. Everything was a mess. I was a mess because of my dripping nose, my little one as well, and yes, the house was a mess as I can't really clean the house properly.

My only hope was the nap my daughter would took in the afternoon. I thought yes, I'd be able to rest by then. I nursed her and right after several minutes she's still wide awake. And when finally she's  asleep, I thought "yes, I could sleep now". And so I watched some YouTube videos (my pampatulog), and while I was having fun watching some videos and trying to blog, she woke up. My little girl normally takes her nap 2 hours the least, but this time it was only an hour or less. Maybe she couldn't sleep well because of her cold. I tried to bring her to sleep again but that didn't work out. So I thought okay fine this wouldn't be too bad.

I reached my boiling point while I was preparing for our dinner. I got frustrated with all the chores I had to make, my little girl who keeps on whining because of being sick, my dripping nose, I got no tissue, the husband who comes home late, the messy house, plus, I'm going to have my period already. Ah it couldn't have been more perfect.

When the husband came home that night, I couldn't help but put it out on him. He told me to go upstairs.  And so I went, I cried my heart out, and thought of happy things and all the blessings I have. When I was done with my drama. I went back to my little family, said sorry and my two favorites hugged me. It was the best feeling.

I know I shouldn't have done that. I know I was wrong. But, I'm no superwoman -I get tired, I get frustrated, and sometimes I just need some alone time to keep myself sane. I am just so thankful that with all the flaws I have, my husband understands me and is really patient with me.

And with this, I got to remind myself that...

Mama needs to be healthy 24/7 ;)

26 comments:

  1. Aww.. Yes Mommy has to be 24/7 healthy since everything is on us.. Cleaning, cooking, taking care of family etc. Ako nga may time pa na hindi contented when things arent done my way. lols. Good thing I seldom get sick and hoping it will not take its toll in the coming years. =) Take care Coi and Family

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    1. Yes, need to be super healthy24/7!! Super hirap pag may sakit. :(

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  2. Hope you're feeling better now. Btw, I think you need some me-time to make you really feel better. Maybe its your daily routine that makes you feel frustrated. Cheer up, there are tons of moms like you. :)

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    1. Thank you, I'm okay na. :)
      I thought so too. I really need some me-time hehe ;)

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  3. You have to take it easy and dont push yourself too much. Take time off and relax a bit and have "me" time also.

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    1. Thank you!;) I was able to have a me-time pala nung Blogapalooza hahaha!

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  4. Good read :) Yes, we are no superwomen. We, or everybody rather, need a break sometimes. I suggest you set a date with your bff or friends or whoever close to you :) or if you dont have time, invite them over to your crib. That will set your mood and eventually you will feel much better :) hope you're feeling better now :)

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    1. Thank you! :) I think I had a me-time nung Blogapalooza hahaha! Hindi na ako masyadong stressed hehe ;)

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  5. Yes, others might regard us as superwomen but we could also be tired and sick. So sweet to have husband and inlaws to depend on during those gloomy days. Bet youre feeling 100% OK now with the husband looking after his beautiful wife.

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    1. Thank you! Yes, really thankful they're understanding sa mood swings ko hehehe ;)

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  6. Oh, yes, moms like us can't get sick because everything will go wrong in the house. Take care of yourself, sis!

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    1. Thank you! ;) Kaya nga eh, thankful din to my husband na he understands me hehe :)

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  7. Oh, I know how you feel. I got sick with sever back pains early this year and my patience was really running short because I have 3 young kis to attand to even with my back pains. Thank God I survived and my back is better now.

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    1. Good thing you're better na. :) Oh my I could have just imagined. Ako, isa pa lang pero grabe hahaha! But as what Chuckie says "minsan lang sila maging bata" hehehe ;)

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  8. AWWW.. There are really times where we will reach this point every now and then. We are not superwoman becauase we get sick, we get tired, we mess-up big time. The good news is, God understands us and loves us the same. The more we depend on Him, the more He will sustain us with our daily struggles. Our family is also one of the blessings from Him. They are our source of joy and happiness. They understands and forgives our grumpiness. Get well Coi and Baby. Praying for you both.

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    1. Thank you! :) We're better na. This happened before Blogapalooza pa, nasa drafts lang hehehe :)

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  9. Times really get tough at times. I hope you A Okay now.

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  10. Take it easy and relax. Don't stress on yourself too much. remember that we must take care of ourselves first to be able to take care of the ones we love.

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    1. Yes, I'll remember that :) Less stress na ako now hihi Thank you ;)

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  11. It can be tough at times and you will feel overwhelmed. It's good that you let it out, you'll feel so much better afterwards.

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  12. Aww... outbursts can really happen when you've reach your boiling but that was also an affirmation of how much your family loves and understands you. Stay strong, mommy. You can do it! ☺

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  13. Must be the weather din no? All three of us are sick too. Stay healthy mummy! And when you need to rest, your family should always have your back. :)

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    1. I guess so. Ang init kasi and then bigla ulan :( Thank you! ;)

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